“There was no room.”
This was the refrain that followed Him
as the crowds pressed to hear Him,
speaking from plain and boat,
telling it on the mountain
how the poor would have heaven,
the mourning be comforted,
the hungry eat;
nearly trampling, suffocating Him,
they had to lower the sick man through the roof.
But there was no room.
All sick in Israel were not healed –
not all those who hunger were filled –
the lame could leap, the blind could see –
but only some.
Bleeding, she dared touch Him,
but how many didn’t
whose broken souls hung back,
lest broken bodies defile Him,
lest the miracle should be mistakenly directed
at someone like me.
There was no room.
One hundred and twenty crammed
in the little upstairs,
praying with theotokos,
Mother of God,
for who knew what
except what he had promised –
ample grounds for prayer –
the cosmosphere shuddered, suddenly opened;
tongues of flame,
impassioned flagrant kisses,
seared the polite veneer,
and suddenly:
“Do you hear him!”
the Spirit of God ripping through creation
as once he o’erhovered water –
“In our own tongues too!” –
fire never burned hotter;
from Jerusalem to Rome,
life sizzled.
But then in the cities sometimes
it was heard again
“There is no room.”
The cramped quarters sometimes
hid enough of the old man
waiting his chance
to cringe back,
always creeping,
that old zombie Adam
wishing resurrection on his own terms.
Then when the clouds of hunger and yearning
hung thick on the city,
then, by Providence,
“To the desert – room in the desert!”
And so they were born
who saw no room for His brothers, sisters, Christ’s,
In the civil city –
but in the desert
a highway,
a tabernacle for hearts:
“So there are enemies?”
Where there are enemies,
he furnishes for us
a table
in their presence.
And now it is come here,
where there is no room;
where the bell tolls in the world
for all but them – and me –
who envy even proper death.
“There is no room!” The cry,
sometimes a fever pitch,
sometimes a whisper;
“There is no room
for entertaining angels unawares.”
But then a vision:
My heart, my soul, my body:
desert.
But in desert there is room.
“There is no room,” I hear again;
but I know it only the jackels laughing,
my enemies in the desert
guaranteeing me God has prepared
a table in their presence
where “world without end”
remains no more
mere pious trope:
Oh, taste and see;
Today we feast!